Intertwined Mishaps

Walk away, world’s crumblin’
I keep stumblin’
Tryin’ to keep true to myself, be humble and
Know I hold a heart that’s so fragile and
I have a place in this world so I keep travelin’
Like a lost, poor, and hungry soul, unravelin’
The pieces of my faith that are worth havin’ and
Lookin’ for his face in all that I see
Lookin’ for the answers of just how to be free
It’s just me and HIS Majesty, my deity
Walkin’ ‘cross this lonely land all the way to the sea
Now I see I thought I was lost in many ways
I never laughed, I always cried, never sang any praise
To my G-d who blessed me with all of my days
Helped me see the light at the end of the maze
I was crazy, so lazy
Mind so hazy
From the negativity, now it don’t faze me
Force the darkness out and let the light shine in
Push your ego away and let peace begin
To fill the void that left your soul weakened
Say ‘Yes, I believe’ and let HIS light seep in

Look inside yourself
HE is there
Look inside yourself
HE is there

I’ve turned my back a time or two I’ll admit it
But now I’m dedicated, I’m committed
To turn my life around one step at a time
I once was weak now I’m ready to climb
To climb
Up and above all of the hate
Ready to climb on up and accept my fate
I’ve prayed G-d that it ain’t too late to finally free myself of all of this weight
That’s been put on my shoulders since I was young
It’s a wonder I never picked up a gun
Though it was tempting coming straight from the devil’s tongue
But I pulled myself up rung by rung
To be closer to YOU my G-d, my redeemer
Thanks to YOU I am a dreamer
A believer
In all of your power, all of your glory
I’m ready to accept my life’s story
It’s by your grace that I’ve made it here today
YOU believed in me even as I was led astray
Knew I’d come back some day
And here I am back on my knees and I pray
For forgiveness of all of my sins
And to thank you for all of my losses and all of my wins
And letting me know with every story ending a new one begins
A new chapter, a new life meaning
Thank you for intervening
I wish I could I have no regrets
But I haven’t made peace with my mistakes quite yet
And I know to forgive but to never forget
Forgive myself for getting upset
At you when you weren’t the one to blame
Even then, in my darkest hour you came
To show me the way
To show me the way

Look inside yourself
HE is there
Look inside yourself
HE is there
HE is thereHE is there

I try to walk away quietly
Maybe then they won’t see who I am or who I wanna be
Camouflage with the negativity
Slip away benevolently
Or maliciously
Whatever comes over me
As I flee to the nearest exit to serenity
Beaten paths and I laugh at all the hypocrisy
‘No hate! No, wait, except for you
Cause I hate every tiny little abstract thing you do
From how you comb your hair to how you tie your shoes’
You can’t be for peace and for hatred, too
Pick one side or the other
Don’t say you love and then stab each other
Bend to the ground hold your head, duck for cover
Bout to blow up maybe then you’ll discover
That there’s just one life on Earth you don’t get another
And if you mess up then you’re in trouble brother
Cause ain’t nobody got your back
When every statement for peace you make you retract
Rewind stick in false facts
False hopes, slip through the cracks
All you’re gonna get is flack
From the pack of the others who are just like you
Liars and cheats who got nothin’ else to do
But run their mouths like they gettin’ ready to chew
And I sit and listen to all y’all and know none of it’s true
No one else go my back but myself and you know who
Tearin holes in the skies
Don’t need a disguise
Or lies
Or fireflies
In your eyes
Just catch you by surprise
Just realize
Ain’t no compromisin’ when you’re talking to Him
People been tryin’ that game time and again
Can’t fool Him can’t play games with the King
Cause even if you got your secrets, he knows everything
He knows you’re lying straight through your teeth
He knows what’s going on the outside and underneath
If you try to worship him, try to pick up the pace
But if you’re trying to pull one over on him you’re a disgrace
Cause when judgment day comes and you meet face to face
Best believe that G-d Almighty will put you right in your place

I’ve tried to lay down so many times
I’ve tried to close my eyes so many times
Tried to fade away so many times
Keep comin back to haunt myself so many times

Try to keep my head above the waves
Crashin round all over the place
Try to stop myself from being a disgrace
But the sea of blood keep’s splashin in my face
I’ve fallen to me knees
Shoutin out my prayers and my pleas
Run down the hills of kings
Just to listen silently
Tore myself from what’s real
Try with all my might just to feel
Somethin that wasn’t pain or fear
Just to feel my heart’s not steel
One beat or two or three
Can’t stop until I feel I am completely free
Of the demons that have captured me
Drown me in the bloody sea

I’ve tried to lay down so many times
I’ve tried to close my eyes so many times
Tried to fade away so many times
Keep comin back to haunt myself so many times

Souls ain’t gone to rest
Still lookin 'round for happiness
Their eagerness
To impress
Someone they ain’t never met
Eyes sunken in and drawn down
Bowed so low their jaws touch the ground
No one can see what they haven’t found
Just a piece of the past, another trip around
To lives they all left behind
To try to find
A sliver of who they were, a fraction of their mind
The wind blows down their naked spines
Winds shriek like their cries
Of utter pain and agony
Of who they were and who they’ll never be
That shadow without the history
Yeah, that’s who I used to be
But now I am here
Flesh and bones with no fear
Able to hear
That no matter how it appears
I’ll always persevere
Cause G-d knows I’m ready to fight
For what’s right
Brand new day
Push away
The very dark of night
Plant my feet square in the light
And let it shine down
From the sky down
I can smile now
But I can also allow
To have my bad days
Days I wanna go away
Pull away
From this maze
That’s when I need to pray
For strength, I’ll be okay

I’ve tried to lay down so many times
I’ve tried to close my eyes so many times
Tried to fade away so many times
Keep comin back to haunt myself so many times
But no more
No more
No more
No more

confused confusion
hazy eyed blind intrusion
wraps around my brain
hemmorhages then contusions
conclusions
there ain't no solutions
just illusions
black and white fusions
they just use us
to come back and abuse us
just useless
think we're useless
and clueless
well newsflash here's their backlash
twenty-one years down the drain
with one quick head bash
and FLASH
gone like lightning
and it's so frightening
that the hate is heightening
so uninviting
what with all of this fighting
just igniting
the shadow started inciting
peace is so flighting
hard to find the silver lining
but a light's still shining
redifining
and redesigning
and reassigning
all of our pining

I am human, I am weak
I listen but you do not speak
Stillness
Thunder
Wind through blades of grass
Your whisper echoes in my ear
But I am deaf, I cannot hear
I am human, I am proud
I look for you behind the cloud
Peace
Serenity
Light in a child's face
You prescence surrounds all of me
But I am blind, I cannot see

Wash away the darkness
Wash away the pain
Wash away my sins
Let me live my life again
Show me how to live
Show me how to love
Show me all your glory
That I've been dreaming of

Let me see the way
The way to free my soul
Let me take back the life
The life all the hatred stole
Let me see the light
To lead me homeward bound
When I needed strength
Strength I found
Let me see the way

I had lost my joy
I had lost my happiness
I had lost my life
In a hole of darkness

Let me see the way
The way to free my soul
Let me take back the life
The life all the hatred stole
Let me see the light
To lead me homeward bound
When I needed strength
Strength I found
Let me see the way

If I lose sight again
Of who I am inside
I know I can make it through
With G-d by my side

Let me see the way
The way to free my soul
Let me take back the life
The life all the hatred stole
Let me see the light
To lead me homeward bound
When I needed strength
Strength I found
Let me see the way

Rise up against the blackness that seaps into my veins
The hatred, that hunger that still remains
Whenever he crosses my mind
Somehow I have to find
The strength within to leave it behind
But the wounds are obvious to me
So fresh but too old for anyone to see
Unless they see my insanity
All the pain stings like electricity
As the volts run through me and into the sea
Of the thousands of millions tears I've cried
G-d knows I really have tried
To push out all this hatred inside

Push my arrogance aside
Dry these tears I've cried
Resist the urge to hide
The urge to die
Look up to sky
Bask in His holy light
Holy light
Holy light
Release myself from these chains that bind
And the darkness that had me confined
Let me have some peace of mind
Peace of mind
And I will rise
And I will rise
Rise up to His grace
Even if I'll never see His face
Pray He'll take me from this place
But not before my time
Before my time
I know He has great plans for me
Mapped out my destiny
I'll be whatever he wants me to be
And I'll be free
I'll be free
Freedom just like all the rest
Only comes if you're truly blessed
Pass the test
For His quest
Look beyond visibility
Then you will see
You is third in line to Him and everybody
And you will see
Then you will see
The gravity of His glory
His story
His glory
His story

Darkness falls on this burial shroud
And I scream but it's not allowed
Stifled breaths, one man crowd
I knew I'd never make you proud
Broken dreams and crooked lies
Drenched in tears and severed ties
One look through your hazel eyes
No one can if no one tries
Twenty years just tick away
Hearts and hope start to decay
As I beg for you to stay
Glimmering pain shines in the day

Wrapped around and woven through
Trace the thread right back to you
It's not who you are, it's what you do
It's not about the lies, it's about what's true
I've turned away a time or two
Trying to find other light besides what's in you
But time and again a feeling in me grew
A voice whispered just what I should do
And I jumped off the world and ran towards the sun
Release me from this burden of all that I've done
Free me from my pain, make me whole inside
Dry up this sea from the tears I've cried
And don't ever turn your back on me
Please love me for eternity
And if I stray don't let me go
Please don't let me be alone
Guide me, please try to show me the way
Here I am down on my knees, I pray
That you'll turn it all around, it'll be okay
And that I'll live to see another day
When the seams start to tatter and fray
And my soul seems to just wither away
And they put me in the ground where I'll lay
Take me home to stay
And I'll jump off the world and run towards the sun
Release me from this burden of all that I've done
Free me from my pain, make me whole inside
Dry up this sea from the tears I've cried
And don't ever turn your back on me
Please love me for eternity
And if I stray don't let me go
Please don't let me be alone
And I'll jump off the world and run towards the sun
Release me from this burden of all that I've done
Free me from my pain, make me whole inside
Dry up this sea from the tears I've cried
And don't ever turn your back on me
Please love me for eternity
And if I stray don't let me go
Please don't let me die alone

Explosion of emotion
Blaring loud, the commotion
Suddenly got the notion
Rewind then slow motion
As the clock ticks away
I kneel down and I pray
That all of this decay
Leaves before day
Breaks
And the land and the sea
Aren’t left up to just me
To piece up the peace
Just to watch it decrease
As the pain that boils
Comes back and just spoils
All the progress and toils
Strikes and recoils
As the world turns to ashes
It struggles and it thrashes
Up and down mad dashes
To breathe before the crashes
Come
Duck down
To the underground
Just to rebound
To resound
Ain’t no one around
But us
And the dreams that were drowned
In the blood red sea
Just flowin’ around me
Oh what this would be
If we all could just agree
Could just tuck away our fears
And put down the poison spears
Taste each other’s tears
Melt away, disappear
But it’s been all these years
Just stuck in first gear
I can’t wait to hear
That music to my ears
To let me know that one day
All hate will go away
Will be we, not they
That’s how it will stay

You were so young
When it all went down
I wasn’t much older
But I was weaker somehow
I don’t know,
What happened to you
But I do know
There’s nothing I can do
Nothing I can do

I should’ve been there
But I couldn’t stop the pain
I wish I could promise
It won’t happen to you again
And it kills me to think
That I can’t save you
If it returns
There’s nothing I can do

You said what kind of God
Could do this to me?
You said you only trust
The things that you can see
You said I see myself
Just fading away
I start to cry
You tell me it’ll be okay

I should’ve been there
But I couldn’t stop the pain
I wish I could promise
It won’t happen to you again
And it kills me to think
That I can’t save
If it returns
There’s nothing I can do

If I could
I would
Take all of that hurt away
If I could
I would
Find the right words to say

I should’ve been there
But I couldn’t stop the pain
I wish I could promise
It won’t happen to you again
And it kills me to think
That I can’t save
If it returns
There’s nothing I can do

Just rockin away from the dark side of my mind
Hope that with this newfound light maybe I might find
The peace that has escaped me for so many years
Erase all the pain, all the struggles, all my fears
Standing in the same place for decades you see
Looking back and trying to sort through my lost history
But there’s just me
And the traces of lost family
Floating freely through all my lost memories
But now I have strength from above that’s within
For once in my life I know exactly where to begin
As I fall down on my knees right into your grace
With your words of peace and healing written all over my face
I’ve finally found my way through all of the hate
That consumed me for so long but it was well worth the wait

Twenty-six minutes and I'm gone
Pack my bags, try to move on
Thirteen voicemails on my phone
Saying I'll never make it alone
Memories on the floor
I can't take it anymore
Bruises that I thought I forgave
Only way to be saved