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Tuesday, November 13, 2012

For You



My mind always gets the best of me
I’m not used to being happy
And I can’t be happy without being sad
And all of these emotions are driving me mad
If I could smile and hide the pain
Instead of focusing on the rain
I would, for you I would
If I could lie and say I’m fine
And I didn’t breakdown this time
I would, for you I would

Sunday, October 21, 2012

No Words

No words are needed
when I can listen to your heart.
The beats are loud and strong.
A beautiful song from your chest.

No words are needed
when I can feel my heart racing.
You try to listen but you cannot hear.
It's the fear that is hiding my tempo.

Bed

Feeling the heaviness in my bed
On my pillow, another head
Not a single word said
I love you.

Awake

Dreams of your hands
tracing my imperfections.
Dreams of your lips
kissing the wounds.
I am awake.
I am awake.

Beautiful

You call me beautiful
and you have this look in your
blue, green, hazel eyes
that makes me believe you.
I'm probably a fool.

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

My breaths have always been heavy
And my heart
My heart, well,
it beats in a minor chord
Dark but beautiful
I have never been happy
I have tasted it
Sweet
Sweet
Dripping from my lips
But never being absorbed
Inhaled
Digested
I don't see me as dark
I don't see me as sad
Or lonesome
Or depressed
I see me as haunted
Haunted
By others mistakes
My own
I can feel it all
So thick at night
Crushing
Sleep never came easy
Nightmares while awake
Such a feat
I don't require pity
Or saving
I long for peace
Just peace

Tainted

Haunted thoughts
Hidden in those dark crevices
A taste of happiness is tainted
Feeling
Knowing
What's right around the corner
I am elevated only to be slammed
Down
Down
Haunted thoughts
Leave me alone.

Ice Cold


When morning comes, will you be here?
Will I still be in your hold?
And do you mind, since you’re here
If I put my feet under yours if they get cold?
Oh, oh I know that chances are you’ll go
I will be left all hollow and here alone
Wrapped in my own arms with ice cold feet

Will you pretty please talk to me now?
Tell me everything about you
Baby, please, tell me now
Tell me every single thing until you’re through
Oh, oh I know chances are you won’t speak
I will be left all alone shaken and weak
Talking to myself, keeping myself company

When the end comes and darkness nears
Will you be there with me?
And do you think, if you’re there
If you’ll be my eyes when I can no longer see?
Oh, oh I know chances are you won’t be around
I will be left blind only with my sound
Confused and terrified I will die alone

Fire


Breathe in all the smoke, feel it burning in my lungs
How can you think that I could save you?
Skin’s on fire and I’m ready to get out of here
What did you think I could do for you?
My fingers are moving a mile a minute trying to break you free
Trembling as time is fading and you put your mouth right on me
Somebody’s knocking, maybe I’m paranoid, maybe it’s just my heart
Or maybe it’s just my brain, after all, it’s hard to tell the two apart

Oh, oh let’s burn this place down
Watch the flames lick the walls
No, no there’s no escape now
Come, come and fall

The heat is blazing, we’re black and blue sweating on the floor
How could you think this was the end?
I’m aching, out of breath, and shaking
We could help each other mend
But you pull and I scratch and you squeeze and I tug
As we begin to take a match to the bathroom rug
Somebody’s calling, maybe I’m paranoid, maybe it’s all in my head
Why put the fire out when we can feed it instead?

Oh, oh let’s burn this place down
Watch the flames lick the walls
No, no there’s no escape now
Come, come and fall

Enough


I want to be beautiful, I want to go really far
I want to scream at the top of my lungs, I want to set the bar
I want to the kiss the moon while standing on the ground
I want to be quiet sometimes, not feel that I need to make a sound
When will I be enough for you
When will I be enough
I want to be your everything, I want to feel whole
I want to feel you, your body and your soul
I want to kiss the sky while lying in my bed
No, I want to kiss the sky while in your arms instead
When will I be enough for you
When will I be enough
I want climb a mountain, I want to swim the sea
I want you to want to come along with me
I want to run forever without being out of breath
I want to live my life without being afraid of death
I want to be the one you kiss every day
I want to be the one who makes you want to stay
I want time to stand still, I want to slow down
I want  to let myself fall but I will never let myself drown
I want you beside me, I want to be your such and such
I just want your love, baby, is that too much?
When will I be enough for you
When will I be enough
When will I be enough for you
When will I be enough

Day By Day


I’m not looking for a handout
I’m not looking for charity
I know that I am nothing new
I know I’m not a rarity
I’m just trying to be me
Whoever that may be
Just trying to get along day by day
I’m not in it for the fame
Or for you all to know my name
Just trying to be content with okay

And if love never comes
If my heart is always still
I will forever carry hope
That one day it will
Be mine to have and hold
To warm me when I am cold
To help me get along day by day
I’m not in it for the moon
But I pray that it comes soon
And that it will forever stay

Crash


Open your mouth, breath me in
Let the taste on your tongue be my skin
The world has stopped just for you and I
So we can melt, so you can take me high
I inhale you you’re such a delicious drug
You’re so addictive I just can’t get enough
So I try to overdose on your kiss
I've never craved anything more than this


The sun seems to be shining brighter than usual, it could just be my eyes
They can’t seem to focus on anything but you, I’ve realized
I have never felt so clean as I do in between the time when day melts into night
I have never felt more alive as I do with you, I have never more right

I feel the wind pick up, the storm is coming and, for once, I don’t care
All the lightning and the thunder, the howling wind and pouring rain mean nothing to me, I swear
It can try to break us down, knock over the walls and wreck this town
But I can’t feel the rain or hear the sound as long as you’re around

Sugar


Sweet, my sweet
You’re like sugar on my tongue
Lightning in my fingertips
Honey oxygen inside my lungs
My blood has never rushed this fast
I feel it everywhere it goes
A crimson current to prove life
Swirling love inside my toes

Blew It


I was lost, I was lost in time
And I was trapped in my own mind
Had the chance to make you mine
But I blew it, I blew it
I wasn’t strong, then again, how could I be
When you nearly had what I thought was all of me
I never had a chance at being free
And you knew it, you knew it

I lost myself in the thought of you
In the thought of us, in a moment of truth
In the heat of the night and out of spite
I said goodbye

I chose to stand next to the sea
And at one time I prayed it would swallow me
What’s a human with no identity?
I chose it, I chose it
I ran away from my past and thought I had won
As I raised my dusty palms to the sun
My victory ended as soon as it had begun
G-d knows it, G-d knows it

I lost myself in the thought of you
In the thought of us, in a moment of truth
In the heat of the night and out of spite
I said goodbye

Loneliness is in my bones
Now that I am all alone
A masochist who hates the pain
I try to drain you from my veins

I lost myself in the thought of you
In the thought of us, in a moment of truth
In the heat of the night and out of spite
I said goodbye

Charmed


Questions fill my mind and worry fills my eyes
I just don’t understand just how you feel
You call me beautiful and ask me to dance
I can’t tell the reveries from the real
And I’m caught up in your charm and your disguise
I’m caught between the stupid and the wise
Don’t you think maybe we can get by on fate’s sweet surprise?
Or maybe beautiful lies?

I’ve never been anything anyone would want
I’m not used to the role I’ve been suddenly placed
The confusion, the haze in my eyes and my heart
All the sweet dilemmas I have been faced
And I’m caught up in your charm and your disguise
I’m caught between the stupid and the wise
Don’t you think maybe we can get by on fate’s sweet surprise?
Or maybe beautiful lies?

Maybe it’s true and I mean something to you
But I’ve never meant anything before
So this is all new and I don’t know what to do
It’s hard to admit I’ve never wanted anything more
And I’m caught up in your charm and your disguise
I’m caught between the stupid and the wise
Don’t you think maybe we can get by on fate’s sweet surprise?
Or maybe beautiful lies

Summer Ends


These city lights aren’t shining quite as bright as I thought they would
They’re nothing compared to the stars in your eyes
You’re getting dressed in the back of my tiny apartment in a drafty spot
I play a sad song and beg and plead for you to tell me beautiful lies

August is over and you’re not falling in love will fall
And we are over when summer ended autumn ended it all

There’s this chill in the air it digs in deep and sticks in your bones
The tourists all migrating back to wherever the hell they came
Fill your suitcase with stacks of memories you’ll throw at as soon as you’re home
You’ll remember these city lights longer than you’ll ever remember my name

August is over and you’re not falling in love will fall
And we are over when summer ended autumn ended it all

The sun is setting, the horizon looks closer and closer with each day
Maybe I could reach it if September didn’t come to take you away

August is over and you’re not falling in love will fall
And we are over when summer ended autumn ended it all

Beautiful


You sang these songs that spoke to me
And I ate up every single fucking word
So you lied, such beautiful lies
The most gorgeous of lies that I had ever heard


I hope you didn’t see
The hope seeping out of me
I hope you didn’t see me cry
I try to be so strong
My damn heart is always wrong
And my head is rarely right
Dizzy on my heels and weak in my knees
I fall in the grass and stare up at trees
I lie to myself and deny all that’s true
Tell my heart it’s a snake and to stop beating for you

There are cracks in these walls
That allow me to fall
Again and again and again
It’s so hard to stand still
When no one else will
So I just fall again and again

Pulled down into the sea
Just to lose me
To lose everything I became
To be lost in a wave
Is the one thing I crave
Instead, here I am, whispering your name
Falling through time can be so divine
Falling in love is choosing to resign
To someone who will never know who you are
No matter how close, no matter how far

There are cracks in these walls
That allow me to fall
Again and again and again
It’s so hard to stand still
When no one else will
So I just fall again and again

Crazy


Do you think I’m crazy?
Yeah, you probably do
I can’t say I’d blame you
After all we’ve been through
I try to tell myself
Everything good ends
Why can’t we be more
Than just lovely friends?
I don’t think you get it, I don’t you think you see
How it makes me feel when you don’t see me
I just have this feeling in the pit of my soul
That I’ll never get the pieces back that you stole

Kiss me tell me we’re okay
Tell me you think about me every second every day
Play me a love song just to tell me how you feel
Let me know that this is real

Do you think I’m scared?
Yeah. You’re probably right
I’m terrified of getting hurt
Each and every night
I try to tell myself
That it’s all in my head
But I can’t help but think
I’ll be let down instead
I don’t think you get it, I don’t you think you see
How it makes me feel when you don’t see me
I just have this feeling in the pit of my soul
That I’ll never get the pieces back that you stole

Kiss me tell me we’re okay
Tell me you think about me every second every day
Play me a love song just to tell me how you feel
Let me know that this is real

I know I’m not perfect, I’m not even close
Can I be the one that you want the most?
Can you just tell me straight yes or no

Kiss me tell me we’re okay
Tell me you think about me every second every day
Play me a love song just to tell me how you feel
Let me know that this is real

Saturday, August 25, 2012

Ribs

My heart races
It's pounding beneath my rib cage
Funny thing: a rib cage
Meant to protect your heart from getting hurt
But what happens when the pain isn't physical?
What good is a rib cage to me then?

don't let go

don't let go
hold onto my heart
feel it beating in your palm
don't you dare break it apart
don't let go
even when it starts to sting
learn to just love the pain
it can change everything
don't let go

Your Best

If I can't fall asleep would you forgive me?
Because you're better than any possible dream
If I lay here on your chest could you forget the rest
And just try your very best
Never let me feel alone again
Never let me shiver from the wind
Never let such a good thing end
Can you try your best for me?

If I kiss your lips would you grab me by the hips
And watch the world with me as it slips?
And if I say three words what will I get in return?
Will you turn to ice or will we burn?
Never let me feel alone again
Never let me shiver from the wind
Never let such a good thing end
Can you try your best for me?

What would you say if I could find a way
To interlock hands and allow you to stay
What would you do if I said I choose you?
Would you tell me you feel the same, too?
Never let me feel alone again
Never let me shiver from the wind
Never let such a good thing end
Can you try your best for me?

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

It's not a denial, it's not a confirmation
You try so hard to avoid the conversation
I put it all out there, I took a breath and I took the dive
I still got hurt but I also am still alive

Confusion

I am so lost
Was it something I said?
Were we ever alive
To really be dead?
Confusion comes easy these days

A whirlwind beginning
Caught us both in the air
I always chose truth
While you always took dare
Confusion comes easy these days

One wrong move
Your queen is taken away
To live in solitude
And pretend she's okay
Confusion comes easy these days

And I spew out apologies
That I shouldn't have to make
As you sit shrouded
Reluctantly admitting your mistake
Confusion comes easy these days

My brain is my nemesis
Something warns me to flee
Telling me that you are
Stealing the best out of me
Confusion comes easy these days

But I hand you the olive branch
I try to make amends
Are we nothing more
Than haphazard friends?
Confusion comes easy these day

Monday, April 30, 2012

Sung


What once was bright is all brown
What once was up is now down
And you try to tell me nothing’s changed
The wind is sour on my tongue
The bird’s song was already sung
By a sun so cold and deranged
It seems you were right, nothing’s changed


Special

Opened up
Safety in the thought of you
Us
The mind can be torture
Bliss
Imprisonment
Freedom
Entangled, enraptured
My heart can't decide
My mind is no help
My gut is silent
Intuition ran away
You, us
We

Sunday, April 29, 2012

Sidewalk is cracked
Shattered in fact
It’s just another thing that I can’t fix
You take my hand
Ask me to understand
It’s just another one of the heart’s little tricks
You’ve been waiting for someone to save you for quite some time now
I promise if I could I would try to find a way somehow

Oh, baby, I’m not a hero
I can’t even save myself
I’m just your number one zero
You have me confused with somebody else

You don’t beg, I can see it in your eyes
You think your smile is such a good disguise
You think I won’t catch on to what you desire
I can help you pick up the pieces
But I cannot smooth out the creases
No matter how hard I try, I cannot put out that fire

Oh, baby, I’m not a hero
I can’t even save myself
I’m just your number one zero
You have me confused with somebody else

I can kiss you, tell you sweet lies
Like everything will be all right
Truth is I want to be what you need
But I can’t save you, no, not tonight

Oh, baby, I’m not a hero
I can’t even save myself
I’m just your number one zero
You have me confused with somebody else
Oh, baby, I’m not a hero
I can’t even save myself
I’m just your number one zero
You have me confused with somebody else
With somebody else, with somebody else
With somebody, somebody

Sidewalk is cracked
Shattered in fact
It’s just another thing that I can’t fix

Sunday, April 15, 2012

Happiness?

I wait for the sound
The crash, the calamity
Of reality hitting the ground

I wait for the noise
The chaos, the explosion
Of all consciousness destroys

Is this all there is? Is there nothing more?
Is there no destruction or disaster in store?
I'm not use to quiet, tranquility is as foreign to me
As love in light or in dark or the joys of being free

Saturday, April 14, 2012

No one smiles quite like you do
Do you think I could smile with you?
The clouds are gray but the sky is blue
Let’s go wherever your hands lead you
I am willing and I am waiting
I am thunder and I am rain
I am shaking and I am quaking
I am pleasure and I am pain

The air thick with sweet and sour tension
Stuck between us with wire suspension
I’m giving you my undivided attention
Because we both know my intentions
I am willing and I am waiting
I am thunder and I am rain
I am shaking and I am quaking
I am pleasure and I am pain

Don’t think too much, put your mind at ease
I am only here to please
Don’t think too much, put your mind to rest
I am willing to give you my best

I am willing and I am waiting
I am thunder and I am rain
I am shaking and I am quaking
I am pleasure and I am pain

Thursday, March 1, 2012

Attention

You clear your throat
Loudly
Trying to get my attention
I force myself to not look
That's all you want
My attention
You never intended for anything more
You smiled
You talked
You touched
But you were just playing
Child's play and nothing more
You just wanted my attention
I won't give it to you
I won't give in

She cries at romantic comedies wishing it were her life
Instead of the drama that it is
She does it to herself; she’s unhappy but unwilling to change anything
She laughs loudly and nervously
She’s been found out