Intertwined Mishaps

She says it like it's a bad thing
I'm over being brainwashed
Having to choose a side
If you would ask me now I would choose him
He protected me, not you
He taught me how to be an adult, not you
I broke his heart once but never again
I still can't forgive you
Not right now
For pinning me against him
And I haven't forgiven myself
For falling for your insanity

Sometimes a fear grips me
I recognize that I am partly you
A swift movement or the tone in my voice
And I freeze
Knowing exactly who I'm imitating
Mimicking
I get sick to my stomach
Not because I don't love you
I just don't want to be you

You’re waiting for an apology when I’ve done nothing wrong
We can only ignore each other for so long
Neither of us wants budge
Neither of us wants to give in
I know you can hold a grudge
I know living together isn’t livin’

I wish I had never given you that gift
I opened up my heart and you ripped it to bits
All I want is to please you no matter how sick it may sound
Now all I have is silence and it’s shaking the ground

I know you have issues, hell don’t we all
Some aren’t as big as yours but eventually even the mighty have to fall
Do you want to go on this way?
Silence and diverted eyes
Ghosts passing in the hallway
Now that I’ve ripped away your disguise

I wish I had never given you that gift
I opened up my heart and you ripped it to bits
All I want is to please you no matter how sick it may sound
Now all I have is silence and it’s shaking the ground

And I’m hurting like you
Can’t we just talk like we used to
Where did it all go wrong?
You’re pushing me away
Maybe that’s what you want
So it’s easier for us to part ways

I wish I had never given you that gift
I opened up my heart and you ripped it to bits
All I want is to please you no matter how sick it may sound
Now all I have is silence and it’s shaking the ground
Now all I have is silence and it’s shaking the ground